Enough

I never feel like I do enough. It doesn’t seem to matter what I’m doing I always feel like I could do more. I have especially felt this way about school lately. Jonathan is now at an age where he works independently quite well. We have a pretty basic routine, he knows what the expectations are and works to acheive his daily goals with litte instruction from me.  I should feel great about this. Then I read other blogs and see the curricula used or the lessons being undertaken, like Latin, and I think, Oh I’m not doing enough. What if I fail to teavh him something he needs? I should be doing more.
Then there is Bible Study. He has now asked permission and it has been given, to read his study on his own. He then has to give a brief summary about what he read. Again, I should be thrilled that he is developing study skills, independent motivation and accountability skills, but I think, I should do more. Like print out worksheets related to his study, or point out areas he may have missed, but then I realize. He is being led by His Spirit who knows far more than I about J’s readiness or understanding level. But is it enough?
I have never felt adequate in my housekeeping abilities, the past several years with home-education taking so much time that feeling has magnified. I can never keep my home clean enough.
It doesn’t matter what I take on, I always feel like I should do more. I need to let go and realize that Jesus is more than enough, and through Him in my life I am able to accomplish more than I could ever ask or imagine. Just look at J he is oivivg proof of what God can do in my life.